Thanks Cazza, it helps just talking sometimes with people in similar situations thats for sure!
I am relieved about the lump, and I have taken a bit of pressure off myself by putting my exam date back for a few months, which means I can hopefully concentrate on getting a new job. The two main stresses in my life at the moment are my job and relationship. A relationship which I can't leave until I get a new job - catch 22! Anyway just gotta keep chipping away and something will come up.
I think whats happening to me at work is bullying on a large scale - like a culture thats been bred over many years. I have been looking at the types of different bullying within a culture at an organisation and most of them apply to my situation. I've never experienced it before, and I am a senior manager!
I have also been looking at the physical and mental signs that I have been experiencing, and rather than depression - which I have never been diagnosed with - I think I am mentally exhausted. After many years of relationship issues, and even more pressure job related in the last 18 months I'm sure thats what I am suffering from. Normally they ask you if you've had suicidal thoughts, or self harm or stuff like that for depression, and thats definitely not me. I'm just completely exhausted! Quite tearful myself yesterday and this morning actually, bad nights sleep last night, and looking at Fair Work at 3am doesn't help I suppose!
Has anyone tried St John's Wort and found it effective?
Keep in touch xx