Hello Jt, can I ask you whether or not she talks about her art work with you and does she also ask to see how you are going.
Hello Bubbles, thanks for joining and posting your comment.
When someone suddenly suffers from any type of depression, it's not that they don't love you when you believe the relationship is over, it's just that they tend to want to be by themselves, the love is still there, but they are incapable of saying 'I love you', and even if you ask them to say it, sometimes they may give you a halfhearted response, whereas other times, nothing is said, that doesn't mean they don't love, it's the illness preventing them.
Being your first love is magic and no you don't want to be just friends because this is a feeling you haven't felt before and it's totally different from loving a parent, that can't really be compared.
If you think of him all day, especially when you go to bed, that's love dreaming of him every single moment, but if he is struggling with any mental type of illness, then I hope we can help you as well as if he wants to join, neither the less we may be able to guide you through this for your first love, as I still can remember my first love, it changed my life, that's what I loved.