Just back to my original for now , and my damn space thing .
No doubt about it , l am one weird bastard . lt's just well , trouble , when one is even spacey let alone my kind of spacey. As l've always said a none space person will never get a just spacey person let alone someone like me , it's never happened never will l don't think. Even when they try to oblige , when you just don't understand something because your just not like that then most people just can't even figure out the whys and whens and the what's it all about., the needs. lt's funny , to me just strange. But they can be still happily on top of you at midnight , when you've been together all day , still yacking away , oblivious to you almost boiling over with the need to just go , isolate for awhile , nothing personal but please just shut up and leave me alone until tomorrow, or next wk, l'm done for now. hmmm, but but , love life l hear ya , well you know , when your both home through the day and l'm enjoying the company well , there's plenty of opportunity, no problemo.. So whether l even turn up for bed at some stage later through the night or not in that regard , doesn't really matter.
l'm always feeling riddled with guilt though, happened in my marriage too, a partner still wants there there none the less, or to spend evenings together , or to chit chat all night , or to talk yet more, or to curl up with. Well l do love some of that too , of course l do , love it when l'm in the mood. Trouble is that has only ever been 20 or 30% of that of my partners , any partner , ever.
There's nothing l can do about it , it's just the way l am. Of course l hear ya , maybe l need someone more like me but you like/love whomever you do , and strange but on this front that's just unfortunately never been a part of her make up or personality . You'd think it would've been , no idea , but it hasn't, you'd think l would've been attracted to some other space nut wouldn't you., nope, hasn't happened .