You sound like I've felt in the past. I had anxiety AND depression (and PTSD but that's an added story lol).
I hear you.
Please know that many people feel like you do and you are not alone. We are all here for you.
KNOW YOU CAN GET BETTER. I'm doing very well now. (I also completed degrees so I get you).
The MAIN THING right now is for you to get through this period of time. It will pass. You can command your thoughts - they are YOURS after all. We'll get there, you've got this.
I hope you know that it's during University Courses when many people have the onset of Mental Unwellness.
I'm going to ask you one question. You can close your eyes and feel what your answer might be for today, if you want to....there's no rush at all.
Do you really feel that you WANT to complete a Degree?
It feels like you do.... IDK.
I'm not asking what you want to do for a job or a career or anything like that in the future.... just that question and just how you feel today.
I have a strategy for you to consider, depending on your answer.
There are endless possibilities for your future. But I want you to focus on TODAY and replacing all your ruminating thoughts about the future with ONLY thoughts for today.
Really break it down. I'll go first... and notice my words are in the positive...
* I'm going to eat a healthy breakfast of cereal and chai tea
* I'll take the dog for a walk, he loves that!
* I'll see what's on BB forums
* I'll phone a friend
* If I feel overwhelmed I will call a helpline
* I'm doing some work in the garden today
* I'll watch some comedy on TV tonight
* I'll have a long hot bath
* I'll read before bed or if I'm not in the mood, I'll listen to a meditation CD.
It can just read: good food, walk, talk, breathe, bath, bed.
Depression can make us think that we can't do anything and anxiety can make us think we have no control over anything. They are both liars lol!
With depression we need UPLIFTING things to bring us joy and with anxiety we need grounding things to bring us back to earth (I've been way out in the stratosphere lol) and back to the moment. They interchange etc.
Overcoming depression was what I did first. I didn't even know I had major anxiety. Then I found out and was able to cleanse both from my system 99% of the time.
There are some strategies than can help heal both; self-care practices, watching comedies and mindfulness training are included.