Hi Hope4U, thanks for posting your comment and as Jackson85 has said, you're not alone in struggling with this awful illness, I'm sorry that you are going through it.
There are times when some of us have a relapse, maybe for a reason or maybe for no reason at all, and it's happened to me several times, you know it just happens, you can't stop it, even though you've been travelling pretty well, but before you know it you're back feeling awful.
I also self medicated with alcohol, knowing that it wasn't any good for me, and often told by my doctor, now, fortunately, I only socially drink, but it hasn't been easy, and know the position you are in.
Perhaps you could start to write down on a piece of paper what you are having problems with, because by next week, how you feel today, might be different to next week, but still very important, then you can hand this list over to them (take a photocopy), maybe you could also do the K-10 test and do it a few times, not straight after another, then you can hand this over as well.
Hope to hear back from you.