Hi geoff, Sophie_M, Mark Z., Banksy92, and Sophia16,
Thanks so much for all your responses. Each week is a bit different. Haven't had a sip of alcohol for the past 20 days and have only drank 3 times in the last 6 weeks... I am really happy with my progress in this part of my life.
I'm definitely the problem solving type of person where I like to look at an issue and then fix it, and move on... While on the surface I know our minds are a lot more complex than that, I think it's my subconscious that's a bit more impatient... Having a few wines each night I think gave that buzz where time just passed by, taking away from worry, but then anxiety would rise it's head the next day.
This past week has been good but I think it's because work overall has been positive.
Where I'd love to get to is:
- I have a better way to manage work mentally and stop overthinking.
- my phone usage is significantly reduced (feel like I'm now getting headaches from it which may have been masked by drinking before)
- my marriage is way better and we enjoy life together a lot more
- I keep spending time with my kids, but a lot more mentally present.
All this is definitely more of a Program of Work rather than a 5 minute hack so I'll just need to be patient and take the wins along the way.
My GP appointment went fine last week. They have put me on a mental health plan, but I have to wait for a psychologist which is annoying. I have an appointment for mid July. Not ideal but can wait.. They have also put me on standby in case an appointment comes up earlier.
Apart from that probably the biggest thing that frustrates the hell out of me is the fact that I'm not actually happy most of the time. Honestly I've had a life that would be seen as perfect my many - great childhood with great parents wit a great roof over our heads, got to go to uni and have overall had a pretty good career and now am married with 2 kids. I know there's so many people out there that have dealt with so many hurdles in life that really deserve support before me.
Anyway, that's the latest from me. Thanks for reading and thanks all for your support!