Thank you so much for your post and for opening up about what you have been through and the difficulties you are facing now, especially with being understood and appreciated for what you are trying to make happen for yourself.
I too suffer from both anxiety and depression, and am overwhelmed at times as to why it keeps happening to me. I too find that my words are not taken seriously or believed, as to the people around me I think it is too strange for them to understand.
O know how unhelpful and disruptive and exasperating life can feel and be, without even adding the compulsory things like working, housework and taking care through exercise, mediation etc.
Its funny how sometimes you hear a song on the radio or Itunes etc, and you feel like it was written just for you. Like the artist understands the situation. You are not alone, you just don’t have the right people to talk to about your specific problems and issues, when you need to and are trying to seek help.
There is a lot to loose due to I’ll heath I agree.. I moved in with a family while my husband and I were moving house, and I found it so stressful my hair started thinning out quite a bit about 3 months later. I still get a prickly head when I get stressed and it worries me. I have now found a scalp brush to stimulate blood flow to my head and it feels great health-wise.
Therapy is expensive I agree if you don’t have a work EAP Program or need someone with a specific skills set. I the a GP can recommend services completely or at least covered under Medicare when you sign up for a Mental Health Care Plan - well worth doing.
Aside from that there are some great resources online. I think the ANU had a really good web-based program that I found very useful - I will try and find it.
Wishing you the very best Shanthan and keep being open and communicating about your needs 👍