Hello Jazz, and thanks to Suzi for replying to you, and can I mention that I also have OCD.
Having this illness can create many awkward situations and it can make our everyday tasks very difficult to complete or contemplate even in a comfortable situation as we develop a type of fear where people who don't have this illness find it hard to understand.
We are able to initiate thoughts we had never wanted to create, unfortunately, with this illness once they start we are unable to stop them as they begin to grow.
Are you able to type 'intrusive thoughts' into the search bar, then a large folder will appear, where you can view many different comments by various people.
I hope this may help you at the moment, but please get back to us.