First of all welcome to BB and well done for coming here! This is a very supportive place and nobody will judge you or criticise you here. Can you let me know what's been happening to make you feel so down?
There are lots of helpful people here who come and go at different times but will help you and give you support.
So can you let us know what's going on in your life to make you feel this way? So we can try to help a bit?
Glad you came on here, that's a great first step!