Thank you for your kind and insightful reply. I have tears of gratitude as I feel so misunderstood.
Anxiety definitely had an effect on my day to day well being. Often (most days) I wake up with a pounding heart. I startle easily. My self esteem is affected. I worry, I feel fearful of major decisions. I feel alone, unheard, abnormal and wish I could escape my feelings.
Paul you are spot on my husband is not willing to recognise anxiety however even if he accompanied me to doctor I’m not sure he’d understand. Anxiety is not in his DNA he just gets on with it and wants me to do the same. Stoic type.
Thank you for sharing that you take meds too. I want to be honest and say I’m not keen to change my medication. However I also want to feel less anxious.
I have taken the current medication for years. My present anxiety is due to feeling insecure with so much massive change occurring.
As examples of issues I’m dealing with:
My husband made the decision to retire. Big change in finances.
He is now getting the house ready to sell. I want some stability right now he only left work September 19. I am also feeling if we sell and buy again that I’ve permanently committed to Victoria which I am not ready to do.
Our neighbours are angry as we objected to their build plans (as did 5 people). We objected as they were to build brick walls adjacent our bedroom and family basically bricking us in. They have hung a wind chime outside our bedroom window that is driving me crazy. My husband asked them if they would mind moving it - they said no as due to our objection they are going to VCAT (a tribunal) to get council decisions overturned and if anything they have good mind to hang more wind chimes. (We have not had this issue ever in the past with disgruntled neighbours.) This causes anxiety and stress.
We have had stress with ongoing house maintenance and cost.
My Mum has put her house on market in WA (where we moved from). I’m concerned she’s aging and I’ve seen little of her maybe once per year since we moved to VIC 9 years ago. We have to finance her trips as she can not afford to.
Thank you for saying you are listening. I’m grateful as I feel like no one is listening.
What helped you Paul as you say you used to have chronic anxiety. What did you find has helped to manage this.
Thank you for being there and for your help. I’m grateful.