This is an awful place to be in and I understand what you are going through
You mentioned "I felt here would be the best place to find that I'm not alone, as a lot of people here are definitely experiencing the same things I am".....You are absolutely spot on Chris....you are not alone here and if you feel up to it you are very welcome to provide support to others too!
My ex wanted to relocate our 5 year old daughter from VIC to Tasmania back in the 1990's. I had a Family Court order that stated I see my daughter every second weekend. I didnt see my daughter very much as my ex just kept ignoring the court order and refused my fortnightly access...(contact)
The family court prevented my ex from relocating my daughter from VIC and warned her that she may face imprisonment if she kept stopping my weekend contact visits.
This cost me not only my mental health (at the time) but also $65,000.
You havent failed your daughter at all Chris....I have never applied for 50/50 access even though I wanted it. You are a great dad who has his childrens well being and stability as a priority....You can only do what you can in this difficult time
I hope you can continue to be a part of the forum family Chris....(only if and when you feel like it of course)
There is no such thing here as a dumb question Chris...just ask away! The forums are a safe and non judgemental place for you to post :-)
my kind thoughts