I'm not sure how to say this, I find it so hard to write what I'm feeling and going through. I'm going to try, this may sound weird but here I go. I have been feeling down again, being stuck in lockdown has made it hard. I have felt a lot of pressure from school and home, people expect so much of me and I feel I don't live up to their expectations.
I feel like a failure at times and life gets a little too much but I don't want to talk to anyone, I just can't get words out. I feel like my family is often annoyed/angry at me, they constantly say I'm on my phone and being lazy. I've also had a major writers block and I can't write anything, nothing is sparking ideas. I've been getting emotional lately, but it doesn't last for long, maybe a couple of days and then I'm fine for a while.
My major problem is I don't want to talk to anyone, I dislike going to someone about my problems, I struggle to express what I want to say and then I go quiet. I'm not sure what to do.