hi again, looking for some advice. tldr: after many years of focusing on school, i have time AND mental stability, but can't seem to find any enjoyment or satisfaction in my hobbies anymore; help?
I used to love drawing, watercolour painting, photography, creative writing, singing, i was even learning piano for a while... but that was years ago. and a lot of those creative outlets were used to get me through dark times. but then i got busy with school. every time i wanted to get back into my hobbies i'd get worried i'm wasting my time, so i kept telling myself "after this set of exams, after this last assignment, during these school holidays..." but then it would never happen.
but now i have the mental stability (i'm doing a lot better these days, most days) and the time (i just finished my trial exams, so i have 2 entire months to be more balanced in my lifestyle) to focus on my goals, one of which is to have some more unplugged me-time. but all the hobbies i used to love just make me frustrated. i think it has to do with confidence, not liking what i create, comparing my art to my friends' art because they're so much more skilled than me... so i end up losing motivation 10 minutes in and crying because i feel so useless.
has anyone else struggled with this? how did you get back into your hobbies after a long hiatus? how do you find enjoyment rather than frustration when creating? are there any new hobbies or other art forms you think i should pick up?
and most importantly, how do i find myself after neglecting my inner self for so long?