Welcome to the forums, we're glad you could share the way you're feeling here. It sounds like a big decision, and we can totally understand how you'd want to be able to talk through it with someone. We think it would be good to talk to someone trusted in your life about this. Is there someone in your family, or someone in your school you could talk to? This could be a parent or relative, a school counsellor or a teacher.
Lockdown is an incredibly difficult, and often lonely, time. We're so sorry to hear that you've been feeling lonely, but please know that you've come to safe, non-judgmental space to talk things through and our community is here to offer as much support, advice and conversation as you need.
If you feel it may be helpful, you are always welcome to get in touch with our friends at Kids Helpline. They are a confidential and anonymous, telephone and online counselling service specifically for young people aged 25 and under, and are available 24/7 on 1800 55 1800 or through webchat here. You may also be interested in getting in touch with Headspace, who offer a wide range of services including group programs which are a great opportunity to meet people. They also have a group chat on their webpage.
Please remember you can always call the Beyond Blue helplines anytime you need to talk things through, on 1300 22 4636, or you can use the webchat or email.
Thank you again for posting to the site, you never know who else might see your post and feel less alone in their own experiences.