hey. i hope everything's gotten better now, i realise you posted in january. i wanted to say that i highly, scarily relate to everything you said. from being in the last year of hs, to going to an academically gifted school - everyone has high expectations of me, as a 'top' student or just someone who often gets good marks, but yeah there's a mental cost to that. i'm feeling rly burnt out rn too. everything is just so, so much. there's so much to do all the time. i don't rlly allow myself to cry or be sad ab stuff because i perceive it as 'time-wasting', so i'm just feeling everything rn, which idk amplifies everything. you're the first person i have seen who have mentioned avoiding their parents to talk about it in fear of causing a fight or having it used against you - legit just happened tonight and is one of the reasons why i suppress telling my parents the bad stuff that goes on, even if im pre close with them too. idk why but reading your post was like wow, i'm not the only one who has felt like this, but i really, really hope you don't feel like that anymore. hope you're thriving right now. you got this.