Welcome here to the Forum. You are not speaking in tongues, many have felt
the same way.
21 is really neither young nor old. It is old enough for you
to have had a chance to start to learn about yourself and gain some experience in
the ways of the world
As such it is perfectly natural to have goals you would like
to achieve during your life, may I ask what sort of things you have in mind? It
is music or more?
Many things worth having do not have a direct or easy path
to them and can take both determination, work and luck to achieve. Even something simple like being in a band,
writing a book, farming …. It can take
time to start towards theses aspirations, and I’m afraid are not normally in
another state or city, but within your home city as much as anywhere, which despite having a reputation
for being quiet certainly has a most diverse and active community.
Should you wish to leave to go elsewhere you will leave all
the support and local familiarity behind and have a whole new set of problems
to solve. True, sometimes you have to, if you wanted to be an actor NIDA is in Sydney,
and do on.
Starting a band may mean joining one first, rather than starting
from scratch, once you have a reputation and familiarity with the scene things
would be easier. Now Covid seems to be
more or less under control musical events and locations are starting to return.
Feeling trapped in a long term relationship is sad but does
happen. It can be bad for both parties involved. Do you think it is something you can talk
over with your partner, perhaps with a view to supplying the social activity
I’ve no experience with hippy communes, but on the whole
have felt them to be a sort term and unstable existence with more conflicts and
less methods of resolution than you have now..
You are always welcome here