I just want to start off by saying how very proud I am of you for reaching out here and telling your story and sharing your feelings, I hope that you have felt a little better in getting it off your chest. We are here for you anytime of the day or night to chat to and to listen and support you.
I have a 13 year old daughter and your message really hit my heart as I would like someone to give her support if she reached out so I will do that for you....I guess I am imagining what I would say to my daughter.
You have so very much on your plate and I can feel the strong connection you have with your dad, so seeing him sad and not being able to be with him as much as you would like to and perhaps need to is really upsetting. It is so very hard to see our parents struggling, especially seeing that they are usually the ones to take care of us, however you can check in with him and even send him messages that you love him and are thinking of him, I love to getting messages like that from my daughter.
If you feel that you are having feeling for a girl at school, in 2019 it really is no different to having feelings for a boy. However in saying that I just want to say that there is not necessarily any need or pressure to "come out". If the feelings are mutual and you decide that you are going to see if there is something between you and the girl then you can try, if it works out, fantastic, if not that is cool too, don't feel like you have to put a label on yourself, just be you.
With regards to your friends, no one has the right to make you feel bad about yourself and I feel like a gentle word to them perhaps might help here, just to call them on their behavior, even something like "hey guys, happy to help with school work and stuff but don't treat me like that or speak to me like that as it bothers me". Friends are tough to manage no matter if you are 12 or if you are 45 like me.....I think just being honest and letting them know how you feel is both important and needed, you are entitled to take care of you.
You have so much on your plate for a 12 year old and I am so so proud of you for talking, if I could reach through the screen and give you a hug I would.
Love to chat some more and see how you are going EC101.
Hope you find something to smile at today as you are so worth it.