Hi Lostgirl and warm welcome to our forums
Life certainly sounds difficult for you at the moment. Breakups are always hard and I've found them to leave me grieving for some time. Do you feel like that?
The grieving process takes time, it isn't easy and can make you feel really off. But it's okay to grieve, that is a normal part of life and things do change.
There is a forum under the People Like Me category, Grief and Loss. Have you had a look through there for people experiencing similar situations or searched our forums using the search field at the top of the page?
I can relate to how you are feeling. Though something I've learnt over time is - moving and/or leaving don't fix the things that you are experiencing. Think about seeing a counsellor (e.g. psychologist) if you haven't already done so. I've always found it really good to have someone to talk to who isn't part of my life. They offer a perspective that can be quite different and open up new opportunities.
Hope some of this helps Lostgirl. Remember, you're not alone and what you are experiencing is normal.