I'm a creative type who has finished the main creative projects and who has no motivation for ordinary work. When I was young, I had hope of creative success to keep me motivated during ordinary work, but now that hope is gone. I’ve had about 35 jobs, so I know the score.
One option now is self-employment. I'm good at playing the stock market, but you need serious capital to avoid panic and to live off when the market is going slow. The solution for that is normally to work and save the capital, but I have no motivation for that. So I'm feeling stuck.
Actually, I'd be okay with an extremely minimalist lifestyle. But you've still got to pay for rent and food, which means being on the dole or working. So it feels like a relentless pressure coming from the world. I wish there was an option like receiving half of the dole but with no pressure to look for work. I could probably do 4 hours per day just sorting boxes or something, but even then the boss needs to be happy. And my employment history doesn’t look great to employers.
I don't think the problem is laziness. The problem with ordinary work is that I struggle with new tasks and get stressed dealing with unhappy bosses in the workplace. Also, I start worrying about being stuck in a boring job for the rest of my life. That's when I go into a really dark place. I'm afraid of getting into that situation again.